love crime.

without a word you left.

you left behind the girl who always put all her trust into you.

did it matter? no, not to you.

you told her that you only wanted her..

was that simply all a lie?

because all i see now is that you're with another girl.

did you ever care? yeah, well, prove it.

does it hurt you knowing it hurt her?

to the d!ckhead,
you hurt my friend and really, that's not acceptable in any way AT ALL.

you think that you can come and go as you like, don't you?

the truth is, you can't.

when you realise what you've let go of,

she won't doesn't want you back.

the door she once had open for you is now closed.

---
there's something for the good love but that's not enough
all he ever did was take it and never give back
go away love thief
don't you come back again
love thief go away
love thief so betrayed
love thief go away
it's a love crime

♥Little S

[yep. no motivation to write. none at all. oh gosh.. someone help me]

Because I hate goodbyes~

“It’s like, hey, I’m never going to see you again, goodbye. It doesn’t feel complete. But I think that’s what goodbyes are. They’re incomplete and you honestly don’t know how long the goodbye will last. It’s a part of life. A part of life I could do without.”


I wish it was different, but it's not. I suppose, this is inevitable. It's life.
We say hello, and we say goodbye as people walk in our lives, and people walk out.
Though the concept of saying goodbye is hard to approach. They are all different; some are for one day, some for weeks, and some are even forever. I'm thankful that ours isn't forever - forever would be so hard to accept.

If you are reading this, I want you to know that I still hope in a years time that we'll still be close friends, and that nothing has really changed. You ARE a great person, and I wish you all the best in everything you do. Thank you for the moments we've shared together - they've been much fun~
:) especially photoplus, pre-Valentine's Day and Tuesday. Hehe.

Even though it's hard to say and not the words you wish to hear; I'm sorry, but for now... goodbye my friend. (Until we see each other again)
I'll miss you! Don't forget me?

♥ Little J

Gone for good.

 all the memories we have are stained
i cant take this shit
how did i ever let it get this bad
messed up any chance we had

i'm so gone - rosette
---

Kept on running back.
It was like a never-ending story.
Except we knew how it was going to end.
In disaster.

"i really need to talk to you"
AGAIN??
We can talk here.
You could've just said it at that moment.
You know.. the moment you sent this to me?
So sick and tired of the made up shit.
If i let you talk to me..wouldn't it just end up just like last time?
Isn't it just another excuse to talk to me?
..or is it simple because you have no one left?

"please.. because i need you"
You say that. But do you really mean it?
Why are you coming back after everyone else stops talking to you?
Yes, i know what's going on. You messed up.
You told me that it felt like i only came back to you in times of need.
"Oh, right. Some of us sometimes feel, particularly me, that we're just second-hand friends."
Who's the hypocrite?
But really, you made it seemed as if i needed you in my life.
"and when they're just like 'okay don't wanna talk', you come back to me."
I don't. I don't if all you cause is trouble.

"do you really hate me that much now?"
I don't hate you.
I simply dislike you.
Quite a difference there.
Making us put up with all the shit you gave us.
Look at how many friendships you ruined now.
Yes, i know what you've done.
Look back at our history.

---

sorry hun.

no second chances anymore

im already out the door  

"So please stop hurting me, delete me forever and just, erase me from your life."
The very words you told me. Do that for me in return?

I don't want it anymore.

[call me a bitch or whatever. but i've had enough]

♥Little S

 ever had a friend just like this? massive sigh.

I found LOVE!

 
i found it -unknown

some say love is hard to find

but when i found you, i found it

when it comes to love, no you can't hide

cause it had me surrounded

two hearts as one, you and i

the best of friends and lovers

now i see the world through different eyes

cause you show me all, it's wonders.

love is great and love is blind

but love is here and love is mine..

----

i really did find it.. (:
how do i know?
cause you're with me.
i found you..

----

you always make me smile like an idiot
and make me laugh as if i'm retarded ~

[130210]
Now i know this day isn't valentines..
but that doesn't matter at all.
everyday spent with you is as special as it should be.

This is the date of yesterday.
This is the date we saw each other.
This is the date i wrote this.
But, this isn't the date i've posted it.
I just want to give you another valentines day present.
Something i can give to you on the exact day, even though i can't see you.

I'll never forget this day.
You make me feel so happy and loved.
I love the cookies you gave.. (omnomnomnom)
but i especially loved this:

 

and of course, the card :D

 You tortured me today! haha.

Oh damn, i'm too ticklish :P

I loved every moment spent with you..

I wish it could have lasted forever.

I love you so much. Don't ever forget.

I'll always be here for you.

I hope you loved my gift.

(ignore the fact that i was gonna post a pictureeee of it. lol)

I put a lot of love into it! (:

I just want to hug you and never let you go.

I just want to see you and never let you out of sight.
I just want to hear you and never stop listening.
I just want to..
I just want to love you..I DO :D

happy valentines day baby.

♥Little S

p.s i love you.

Love is in the air.

Almost that time of year again;
Sunday, 14th of February - It's Valentine's Day.
A love story, more or less.
How love just fills the air.

"Soft kiss and wine
What a pretty friend of mine
We're finally intertwined
Nervous and shy for the moment we will come alive
Tonight
Secret valentine"


Love comes in different ways~
Family-love. Friendship-love. Partner-love.
Either way, it's love.

On this very day, we do not have to limit our love to just the traditional 'if I have a boyfriend/girlfriend, I will celebrate'. We can share our love on this day with our beloved family and/or friends.
Chocolates, roses and the question "Will you be my Valentine?"


So if you are like me, single but still happy, let's spend Valentine's Day with someone we love and care about, whether that is a family member or a friend.
OR, actually, spend it receiving money if you celebrate Chinese New Year :) hehe, wooo!

♥ Little J

you colour my world..

RAINBOW!

red represents love

orange represents enthusiasm

yellow represents happiness

green represents life

blue represents tranquility

indigo represents wisdom

violet represents harmony

 

True colours..
To reveal your true intentions, personality, or behaviours.
----

I always thought i knew the person you were.

Kind, caring.. lol.. the funny thing is that i hardly remember that person enough to say all the nice stuff.

That person who was my best friend. The one who i could always count on..

But that's all gone now...

All i see now is you being selfish, possessive, mean.. a jerk..

So which one were you really? Did you really try that hard to please everyone?

I've given up after so many chances given to you to prove that you weren't the person i now know.

----
Sometimes people pretend to be somebody they're not.
This may be to please others or to try fit in. (etc etc etc)

What's the point if they don't like you for who you really are?
You want to be liked for who you really are, right?
And if people don't like you for who you are, then maybe they're not worth it.
If you're not yourself around others, then maybe you're not worth it.

I don't know.. i just think that you're wasting your time if you do..
But you know what? Eventually the true colours are shown.

♥Little S
----------
but I see your true colours
shining through
I see your true colours
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colours
true colours are beautiful
like a rainbow

request; for you!

poem by a friend of mine
enjoy

Never have I found such a lovely girl

Who’s eyes shine as bright as a sparkling pearl

The girl who dreams to soar the skies

But in her bed she stays and lies

Dreaming about the day she flies

Don’t break dreams and make her cry

As she’s watching each and every day go by

Until the moonlight comes by her bedside

And let her tears be out of sight

Slowly she drifts, into her slumber

Fearless of what’s going on around her

As I stay there and watch over

She walks into heavens light

 The clouds of love shine so bright

 As the light shines above

 I see her happiness, a thing called love

-jBh

"it's from the heart"

aww.. 

♥Little S 

p.s feedback anyone?

Lost it all..

 Today was a sad sad day!

The day my phone died -cry-

 doesn't look that bad eh? but i lost the battery and uh... the screen is screwed D:

let's have a minute silence to remember this phone :P

How did it happen?

Well, i went on that ride 'hangover' D: !

BAD CHOICE!

My phone fell out of my pocket when we were up in the air.

Oh my god.. and i even screamed out "my phonneeeeeeee!" (LOLLOL. -holds onto shoe-)

massive sadface times ten billion.

A phone falling from the sky does not survive!

Okay.. I was screaming cause my phone fell out. But also cause i was so scared T-T

I'm never ever going on that ride again. Should've seen me after it..

i felt so sick and was even shaking from fear. haha ><

I have the pieces of the phone except for my battery, which they couldn't find..

BUT ON THE BRIGHTER SIDE!! I have my sim card and memory card! :D

 hmm.. i remember.. it has a picture of you on it.

i think that's on the memory card :D

haha, i'm such a pedo eh?

-----

"did it have anything important on it?" my heart stopped.

the tears started and it wasn't something i could stop..

It had all those texts from you that made me smile

and it was something i wanted to show and remind you of in the future..

but, that was all gone know wasn't it?

Sigh..but i tried to look on the brighter side.

All those memories, i wont ever forget.

i know those texts were saved on my phone as a reminder,

but how could i ever forget the things you said..?

"so smile baby cause we're in love!"

"i love you and i don't take that lightly"

"seeing you is just a bonus. as long as i know you love me, it's okay"

"i love you so much. more than life"

"i can't imagine life without you"

"i love you the mostestestestestestestest"

"you make me so happy"

"you're perfect to me"

"you won't lose me baby"

"i must have promised it to myself. well, i promise that i'll never break your heart or break up with you"

the list goes on..

Well, while these may not have been exactly what you said,

i'll still remember the way it made me feel.

happy. the way a happymeal makes me feel :P

pinkfluffybunnyrabbit<3

♥Little S

It feels like only forever.

Today you turn 17! Happy birthday B! ♥

"Where have you been my whole life?"
As corny as it may sound, I'm grateful that you ARE here now and a part of my life.
You are a friend whom I trust like a sister. A friend that never judges and listens to what I have to say. A friend that understands and stands by me through it all.

Can you believe it has only been a few months since we first knew each other? We met through our lovely close friend S on the topic of friendships/relationships I endured.
Rather funny actually because if that never happened, we probably wouldn't have met!
Throughout the months, you've become one of my closest friends fairly quickly. I hope I'm one of yours too.

I re-read that email you sent me for New Years. How my face light up reading each word.
You make me laugh, you make me smile and you make me feel like I can do anything I set my mind to.
Thank you for EVERYTHING you've ever done for me! Hope you enjoy your birthday day with me :)


Little J ♥ B & S
Our everlasting friendship!
You are both kind-hearted, inspirational, honest, likable and two of the people I trust most in my life. I love everything about our friendship; the good, the bad and the craziness of it all. Here's to many more years of friendship.

[Poem I made up]
Our friendship is pure,
and oh so true.
You make me smile,
you really do.

We go through highs,
and go through lows.
I tell you secrets
that no-one knows.

You are so cool,
and never judge.
I think you also
won't hold a grudge.

You make me happy
brightening each day.
You are my friend,
lovely in every way.

I love you B~

♥ Little J

Treasure every moment

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way,
something to be gotten through first,
some unfinished business,
time still to be served,
a debt to be paid. 
Then life would begin. 
At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

Happiness is the way.
So, treasure every moment that you have. 
And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special,
special enough to spend your time
and remember that time waits for no one
So stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school,
until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds,
until you start work, until you retire, 
until Friday night, until Sunday morning,
until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, 
until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter,
until the first or fifteenth,
until your song comes on,
until you die. 

Decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

Therefore: 

Work like you don't need money,

Love like you've never been hurt,

And dance like no one's watching.

- Alfred D. Souza.

Time goes by so fast whenever you're with me..
Sometimes i wish that time would just stop.
So that i could be with you, longer.

And you know what the funny thing is?
That when i'm not with you..
time goes by so slow..
seconds like minutes. minutes like hours. hours like days. days like weeks. weeks like months. months like years.

You know what i want most?
To be with you..
but it's okay! I'll just treasure every moment spent with you.
Appreciate being with you. Loving you!

[[ Do you remember, the day we met? I know you do :P
Haha. It makes me laugh thinking about the day when we were in the city and i asked you if you remembered. You pointed at that very spot we met. We walked towards it and stood there for a minute or two. It really did take me back to that day..
IT WAS SOOO HOT! I remember my friend yelling out your name so loudly cause i was too shy too. >< AND YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF ME WAS PROBABLY ME BEING A RETARD! I couldn't stop laughing that day. Haha. But i was really glad that i had the chance to meet you.
And then i asked you if you remember whether you remember the place we had our first kiss. You took my hand and said "no", starting to walk. You walked to the very spot and gave me a kiss. It was like it was happening all over again. It made me smile and really happyFACE. :P

I'll never forget these special moments. ]]

You make me smile, you make me laugh.
Whenever i'm down, you wipe away my tears.
I know i can always count on you to be there.
I'll be there for you too.
We made each other promises,
which i know we won't ever break.
I think about the days we spent together,
It makes me so happy to know they were with you.
And you know what baby?
You are my everything. My one and only.
My stalker, pedo, silly king.

I love you!

happy 14 months, baby.
sending muchly love to you!
HAPPYMEAL <3

♥Little S

Press replay!

Do you ever feel like you repeat the same things over and over again?
Maybe it's listening to a song, or simply the daily routine of getting up for school.
Re-reading those conversations you had with someone that make you smile. Perhaps even reading the previous blog posts and seeing the countless mistakes made.
We're going around in circles. Again, and again.
Deja Vu.

I hatestrongly dislike you, and everything we've been through - especially the fights. Maybe I'm not thinking rationally; is my bitterness towards you real?

You used to be one of my closest friends, but now we have been driven further apart.
When I was happy, you assumed I was not. Why couldn't you just accept it? Be happy instead of bringing me down.
When I tried to help you out, you disregard my words and somehow, it was blamed on me.


"I don't know why she's mad at me..."
As if you don't know! Are you oblivious to such things? Or living in a delusional world?
"I'm sorry, I'll change."
Another lie? Did you even really try?
"I didn't mean those things I said about you."
Haha, are you sure about that?
"Let's never fight again."
Yes, really, let's never.

However to my dismay, you still try to contact me, even though seriously, you should know that I do NOT want to talk to you. If I did, I would have replied to you by now. Perhaps even unblocked you.
Your attempts to try and amend our friendship are a lost cause. Sorry, but honestly, your bitching ways is not the way to win my friendship back.
Saying you don't care when you really do is pathetic.
(Haha, I'm such a bitch)

I ask myself "Why am I still not talking to him?" when really I know why.
Maybe one day our friendship will revive again. Maybe we will be able to spend happy days together instead of none at all. Maybe, just maybe, history will not repeat itself.

♥ Little J

Switch It ~

in a flash ain't it funny how your life can change

in a flash everything you know gets re-arranged
in a flash so confused don't even know your name
or even who's to blame

----

Change may be for the good.
Change may be for the bad.
But you know what?
Change is inevitable.

 
"You've changed so much" // "I miss the old you" // "The [insert name here] that i know wouldn't do this"
Do you ever get comments like that? Well, i have. And i know i'm not the only one.

Things that happened in your past, the decisions you make, will definitely affect the person YOU become.
If you've gotten hurt in the past, you may be very cautious and won't let anyone close. Or, if you've been bullied, you could be self-conscious. Or maybe, you've been spoiled all your life making you think you must have the things you want. These are, of course, just examples.
 
"You've changed so much. I guess that's what happens. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if your life is different because of me. Because mine's different. My god, you taught me so much, and now we don't even talk to each other. I guess that's what happens."
-unknown.

Sometimes people don't like change.
They'd rather have things stay the same, so they feel comfortable. It's kind of like going through a daily routine. You're so used to it. And if ONE thing changes, it'll feel so weird. It'll take some time to get used to it. Also, it can make you anxious, knowing that something is no longer the way you always saw it as.

Or it could be because they don't like the person you've become.
I've been told so many times that i've changed. I know that some don't like it. But you know, the funny thing is that they've changed too. And sometimes the don't even realise it. I know myself that i've changed and i wouldn't change who i am if i could. You just can't dislike someone because they've changed. That's not a good enough reason unless the change was for the bad. I'm no longer as shy and i can stand up for myself. People have seen this as a bad thing. I don't think it is. What's so wrong with standing up for myself and being confident?!

So what's YOUR view on change?
I think.. you've just got to accept things have changed and move on. There's no point lingering in the past wishing it'll go back to the way it was. Truth is, it's not.

♥Little S

LIES.TRUST.HONESTY

Now I can't tell a lie,

it's all a blur,

not really sure

if you're a blessing or curse
And the only truth that i've ever known is

when you're telling me your lies (your lies)

--

DEFINE LIE; a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth; a falsehood.

From all the lies that have been told,

hearts have been broken,

friendships ruined,

people angered and disappointed.

Sometimes, you think that a lie is better than the truth. It's not. Sure, the truth DOES hurt. But, finding out that someone didn't tell you the truth, WILL hurt a lot more. Take this as an example -
you have really strong feelings for someone. you tell them those feelings you have for them and in return they tell you they feel the same way. But in reality, they don't. They just can't hurt you and think it'll be better if they don't tell you the truth.

But just take that as an example. I'm not saying it'll happen. Think about it. When would it hurt most - the beginning or end? i don't think i should have to answer that..


What makes them think that it's okay to lie when it's not? And why is it when they get away with one lie.. the lies follow after.. Don't they have something better to do than cause trouble for others?
 

DEFINE TRUST; to have trust or confidence in; rely or depend on. 

Trust is hard to gain, but easy to lose. Ever heard of that saying? Well, it's true. You can disagree with me or whatever, but from personal experience? It took ages for me to trust someone, afraid of what would happen if they gained it. It didn't take TOO long, but a fair amount of time. Getting to know them before trusting them. And with a click of a finger, all that trust in them went away. All because of the lies they told...

I never thought anyone so close to me would ever lie. Especially about love & friendship. But i guess they taught me to be more cautious when i comes to trusting someone. Maybe TOO cautious. But then, that one guy came along into my life and showed me that i could trust without being hurt. Thanks baby. (:

DEFINE HONESTY; the quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness.

I don't think there's much to say on honesty. But, i just want you to know that everyone should be treated fairly. Treat someone the way you want to be treated. So, if you want them to be honest to you, be honest to them in return! I shouldn't have to say this. It shouldn't have to be hard. Honesty is a good quality in a person, so wouldn't you want to be?

♥Little S

Nothing more than just a memory.

You know what? I feel motivated to write in the blog today.
There's just something about the past that will always stay with you, and that from time-to-time I still think back to.

It's been a whole year ago, a whole summer ago...
I gave it ALL, and in return, I was left with nothing - nothing but a broken heart torn in two, a friendship lost and forever just a memory.
I guess we can call it "summer lovelust" or "an immense infatuation".

Define lust; A great desire for.
Define infatuation; A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction.


"I can't recognize,you're a stranger to me.
I feel so betrayed, what a waste of my heart and me."

No, I won't regret meeting you.
No, I won't regret befriending you.
No, I won't regret those moments where I felt like life was perfect. (I'm just delusional)
Though I do regret for holding on so tight to something that no longer existed, and what felt like being crushed into a thousand pieces in the end.
I'm am now simply just another girl that was present in your summer for those few moments, which will seem like a split second of your life in the long run.

I didn't want it to end - any of it, but I knew it was for the better. In the end, my choice of finally letting go and getting over whatever we had was the best decision ever.
Of course I won't forget as it lingers in the back of my mind and pondering of "what ifs".

Through the heartache he put me through, I have learned that I shouldn't let myself fall too hard, especially so quickly. Holding on hurt like crazy. I was young and naive.
Your stupid words, but my stupid desire for you! This lead to one of the worse periods of my life, and for myself to give up on love. Though I smiled continuously with my friends and loved ones around me, often forgetting, making each step to get over him an easier task.

I never thought that I would just leave a friendship to die the way it did. I always thought friendships would last a long time, but I was obviously proved wrong.
When your name popped online msn, I used to smile and desired to talk to you. When you didn't seem to care anymore, inside I felt crushed. Now that your name no longer comes up, I'm satisfied and moved on.


"We don't even talk no more.
We don't even hold hands like we did before.
We don't even know the reason why it came to be."

I (kind of) hope that one day, that he will realise that the friendship would have been worth saving at least. For him not to be so cold towards me and not put any effort. Jerk.

From this experience, it sure changed me. I've built a wall around me that can not easily be taken down. I've become more skeptical of my surroundings and what happens in my life - it's just how I am now.
You can take it, or leave it.

"I think about the little things that make life great.
I wouldn't change a thing about it.
This is the best feeling."

♥ Little J

Promise me ~

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you'll wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will.
  ----

"promises were made to be broken.." scratch that `cause I think that's bullshit! Promises are promises for a reason. They're not supposed to be broken. So, to the guy who said this to a friend..I'm pretty sure YOUR promises were only made to be broken.

"he made me lose hope of any promises.." A friend said that to me. You wouldn't and couldn't just sit there and do nothing about it, letting it happen like that! I want you to know that just because ONE person broke their promises, you shouldn't lose hope in promises all together. Promises made to me have been broken before but i won't let it make me think they're nothing but false hope. And i know that's not false hope unless they make it one, intentionally.
"Some people make promises for the pleasure of breaking them."

maybe i'm just saying this because all i want to do is believe and have hope..
We made each other promises which we know we can't take back. And if we ever broke them we'd be alrightscrewed (: But that's okay, we'd be screwed together. Those promises i made to you, i don't want to ever break. And i hopeknow you feel the same way too! (: iloveyou

Hehe. I thought i'd share this quote:
"Losers make promises they often b-r-e-a-k.  Winners make commitments they always keep."

 okay.. so maybe we don't have to make promises. We could all just commit. Sound good? I know! Good. :)
 
♥Little S

This is dedicated to you ♥

I hope as you read this, that you know who you are...

"I will always be your friend
I know who you are inside
I am with you till the end
Never far behind."

In any friendship, our trust was gained in time, our bond grew stronger each day and we went through both highs and lows.
Even though you moved away those 6 years ago, we maintained our friendship, while the other friendships seemed to fade away from the little time we all saw each other.
Can you believe we didn't see each other for 5 years, that we were able to still depend on each other to be there for one another, and share our thoughts. When we finally hung out, it felt like we had only just seen each other just yesterday.
Our friendship is undeniable, and we've known each other so well that we're also best friends and alike, yet different in many ways.


I guess after school ends, we find out who our real friends are as some friendships just fade away. Sometimes trust no longer exists in friendships, and it does happen, so don't think that it's only happening for you. You're NOT alone.
You said you feel like you're an outsider, and that you've lost your friends in a way. You're not sure who you can trust anymore, that you have been betrayed and lied to, but just know that you can trust me to be there for you throughout it all.

I want you to know, even though I've said this many times before, that I am here for you!
When you are feeling like your world is falling apart, you know you can count on me to be by your side.
No matter what happens, you can always talk to me so don't be afraid that no one will listen. If you need someone to understand you, I'll try my best to do so if you are willing to share your troubles with me.
As corny as it all sounds, you know you will always have a friend in me.


I never want you to be hurt.
I never want you to cry. (unless it's tears of happiness, hehe)
I never want you to change for anyone.
Just know that you my beautiful amazing friend are someone that deserves the best in the world. You deserve to be happy, to love and for all your hopes and dreams to come true.

I know that our friendship will last FOREVER :)
We have been through things together that others may have, or not, experienced. It has only made us stronger, and we can fight through the problems we face together!

I love you twin~

♥ Little J