life, love and faith

"what's the meaning of life, if there aint love

and nobody to trust when u need it
there are many things, in the world u see
but it just aint what it seems
so i keep on fighting for my dreams
take a step with my feet
following my heartbeat
praise the one for the life, love and faith"

no one else can make me feel
the colours that you bring
stay with me while we grow old

support ;;

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Brain dead.

Distractions - that's what I really need.
Please save me from the thoughts that preoccupy my mind.
Just guide me through this and it will be all okay.

If I lay here... if I just lay here... would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Maybe I should go on a walk tomorrow. Just somewhere away from this place for a little while, and let my mind be clear.
I feel so stressed inside. For no good reason. Argh.

♥ Little J

Where is my romeo?

So here I am, procrastinating as per usual. Nothing has changed. The words of your own; "Procrastinate and then do it. That way I'll love it more because I love it when you procrastinate."

I write here in thought of my "romeo". Don't know how that started? It's some love-hate thing. So like, where are you?
All I know is 283. One clue; that's all I've been given.

The first time we talked was either on msn or facebook. Introduced by a friend who attempted to set us up for your formal, and oh how she failed!
We finally met in December of last year. (It's just where I met all the cool Chandler College friends hehe) I thought it was awkward at first, because we'd been talking long before that, but never met face-to-face.
That was a great night, I reckon. The music, the scenery, the photos - everything was just fun, and one part was kind of embarrassing... (By the way, you still need to show me the photo you bought! It better be a damn good one of us!)

Well, you know "you're my lover Danny-o". You're an awesome friend, and definitely trying to corrupt my mind which is very evil. Thanks for the hilarious lunch that one time (but please never eat crab again) and for all the music you have shared with me. Also thank you for the funny and crazy conversations we have. Definitely the lovely spam text messages are worth filling in my inbox as well...NOT!
Oh I just thought, gosh, I'm actually still in Danny-debt...?
(Haha, you better like this post... or no more love from jackie-tte.)

[eww, fat arm >.<]
♥ Little J

sometimes..

I don't understand at all...

YOU DON'T FEEL THE GUILT?

you don't give the fk! on who you hurt?!

she never did anything to you.

so why?

just to prove it cause of a bet? 

that you're top shit?

i hope BOTH OF YOU who played her get what you deserve...

♥Little S

Tonight's gonna be a good night!

"Tonight's the night
Let's live it up
I've got my money
Let's spend it up
Go out and smash it
Like oh my god
Jump off that sofa
Let’s get get up"

So being 18 years old definitely has it's advantages. Though I've got to say that it still feels as if I'm underage, and probably will for a long time. I haven't exactly done much that requires of being of legal age, but I guess I do have much more freedom! Also that feeling of being considered an adult, so that people don't treat you as a kid anymore is highlighting. Just because I'm of legal age, does not mean I'm going to go wild and do absolutely crazy things, and start disobeying the parents. I can obviously still be the same girl, just with those "extra luxuries".

Well anyways, I actually can't wait to stay out tonight and just party it up~
(I just want a night of not worrying about anything, and being able to have fun! Oh, too bad that Danny can't see me turn red, hahaha!)
YEP, TONIGHT'S GONNA BE A GOOD, GOOD NIGHT!
(now I'll just go get ready)

♥ Little J

Sexy~

"I'm madly in love with you =P"
What can I say? It's obviously our sexyness that brings us together as friends. Haha!

So I vaguely remember the first time we were introduced. It was fairly awkward. I guess it was due to the fact that we didn't exactly know each other, and probably cause you were thinking "who the hell is this girl?"
We properly met at our friends' high school year 12 formal in early December. There you were, pushing me about into the middle of the dance floor (gosh you suck for doing that xD). How I tried to push you back but only ended up failing! Dancing was heaps fun though, and it was one awesome night!

I forgot why the whole 'sexy' thing came into our daily greeting to one another. I remember that you started it though, and you'd probably say something like "it's cause we're sexy" for the reason.
I must say that you are a great friend to have, even though we haven't known each other that long. Thank you for being there when I needed a friend to talk to, and for ALL those times you made me laugh! I hope for many more fun memories, and I wish you all the best for whatever you do :)
Of course this blog is dedicated to THE one and only sexy Eddie.
(You better be happy with this since you asked for it-)


♥ Little J

HAPPYFACE*

Smile!
Laugh!
Simply be happy!


Who makes you smile?
Who makes you laugh?

My family are everything to me.
I would do anything for them, and I love them so much.
They will always be number one in my life. Without them, who knows where I'd be.

My friends are amazing. Amazing in each and every way.
They always trying to put a smile on my face, and stand by my side when times get tough.
Whether I've been friends with you for years, months, or even weeks, I'm ever so grateful of your presence in my life. (Corny much?)

My other half? NON-EXISTENT!
Who says you need love to be happy? Hehe :)

Oh, so what can I say? I'm lucky to know each and every one of the people that ARE in my life!
Each and every one of you make me smile, laugh and simply be happy. THANK YOU~

♥ Little J

"Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy."

Life was never meant to be easy. It's just a fact of life.
Finding trouble on my own, or merely it finding me?
Throughout the summer, throughout my high school years, and throughout my entire life.
How life has its ups, and downs. It just inevitable.

So, what's a simple way of moving on?
Just disregard all those thoughts and have a clear mind. For a moment, life will seem perfect - the way you want it to be.


So YES, there is shit in my life.
Ones that repeat. Ones that happen just once. Either way, I just can't escape.
(Ah, that's life. Just sometimes so SHIT. )

♥ Little J

1, 2, 3, 4.. ON HIGH!

LOLLIPOPS <3

 i want these!

i want all the lollipops in the world, just so i could give them to you.

especially cola ;D

hahaha ~

wouldn't this be heaven?

LONG WALKS <3

walking to the park.

walking to the shops TO BUY LOLLIPOPS :D

walking side by side, holding hands (:

i love walks.

don't you?

MUSIC <3

music music makes my world go round and round.

music makes me happy and sad.

music's just awesome (:

don't you agree?

&& LOVE <3

i love my family

i love my friends

i love you.. you know who you are.. my dear stranger.

who do you love?!

♥Little S

ahh, i'm such a retard ~
right.
i would go on about food
but i'll leave it at that :P

with you

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I daydream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at mine. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me.

 -idareyoutoclickthis

♥Little S

it's funny how a quote knows just exactly how you feel.

request; the other side

My life is a big empty box,

just like my empty shell of a body that i walk around in everyday of my life.

I walk the streets as if I'm a ghost,

a breeze of air that comes and goes 

and nobody notices or sees me for who I really am,

not even you,

the one i can't live without.

I see you everyday and i think about you 24/7,

yet when you look at me, you're just looking at an empty space of nothingness.

I'd say it breaks my heart,

but theres nothing to break because i have nothing.

Even if you can't feel the same about me, I just want you to know that you are everything to me.
----

not written by me. it's just a request. credit goes to kvn. :D

♥Little S

Open up!

"girl..
open up to me, you can have all my love
just open up to me and if you'll promise me
you'll open up and learn how to trust again
i can do so much more than him
open up and let me in"

Remember, you showed me this song.
I don't know why, but your presence in my life is different to anyone else. I think it's because we've been through those highs and lows in the past (and the present too). You're like a best guy friend who knows how to put a smile on my face when no-one else could (at the time).
Honestly, I missed our friendship, and your ability to make me forget my troubles and simply just be happy.

If you happen to read this, just know that our friendship means a lot to me, and I must say thank-you. I know some may simply disagree, but it truly means a lot to me to still have you as my friend and by my side.
IOU yeah?

♥ Little J

i believe..

So crazy in this love we call love. and now that we got it. we just can't give up. I'm reaching out for ya. Got me out here in the water and I
I'm overboard. And I need your love. Pull me up. I can't swim on my own  It's too much. Feels like I'm drowning without your love. So throw yourself out to me
My life saver

----

I really can't find the words anymore.
I found that song. It's how i feel.. and how i would feel.. if you were gone..
Everything i write, seems pointless. With no right meaning.
I'll try to come up with words on how i feel. i guess you could say there's a whole load of meaning to the following..
I feel lost.. No, not anymore... you're here..

I'm not like any other girl you've met.

I'm not the type who throws love around.

I'm not the type to scream and shout

BUT

I am the type who listens and understands.

The one who will always be there for you.

The one who won't break your heart.

cause i'm nothing like them. i'm different (:

I love you.

We're together forever. I know i can show you that..

i..i will.. just watch me.

So what will I do? Cause I still love you.
You're the only one who can save me..

♥Little S

One way ticket.

The concept of being able to express oneself through writing on a blog is only adequate to myself. Adequate due to the fact that I have yet to be truly satisfied with my ways of writing and blogging of posts. Though, this blog spot is like a one way ticket to the mind of yours truly, Little J.


I know I haven't written a blog in ages. I guess my mind has been highly preoccupied with other things. The many thoughts that run through my own mind has been a roller-coaster ride. With the spare time in the palm of my hands, I honestly think of anything and everything from choosing what to wear (haha aren't I such a girl!) to the more deep and meaningful elements in one's life.
Those tough decisions I had to make. Forceful in a way - just to see what I really wanted. "To go with my head, or my heart?" Those kind of questions that one may ask themselves.

"Another sleepless night. Is it you? Or was it me? Little things you do or say keep running through my mind. I do not want to think about it, but it is as if my mind is not mine anymore."

I really don't know what to think, feel or be anymore.
Though, I'm lost. Lost in my own little world of compelling thoughts.

♥ Little J

hugs!

You know what doesn't matter?

What they say.

It won't come between us.

I know.

They may not believe it..

So what?

i AM in love with you

and they can't stop that.

Can i have my millions of hugs right now? (:

i love you..

♥Little S

Innocent?

Read this! Let's see what you thought ;)

----

A first-grade teacher, Ms Neelam (Age 28) was having trouble with one of her students

The teacher asked, "Boy what is your problem?"

Boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in the third-grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third-grade too!"

Ms Neelam had enough. She took Boy to the Principal's office. The principal told Ms Neelam he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave. She agreed.

Boy was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test:

Principal: "What is 3x3?"

Boy: "9"

Principal: "What is 6x6?"

Boy: "36"

And so it went with every question the principal thought a third-grade should know. The principal looks at Ms Neelam and tells her, "I think the boy can go to the third-grade."

Ms Neelam says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions. Can I ask him?" The principal and Boy both agree.

Keep reading. This is where it gets interesting ;)

Individuality

the qualities that distinguish one person or thing from another; identity

individualism

Belief in the primary importance of the individual and in the virtues of self-reliance and personal independence

 "You just have to do your own thing, no matter what anyone says. It's your life"

We all have a right of being an individual, right?

Definitely.

Does someone have the right to control your life?

Of course No way.

love crime.

without a word you left.

you left behind the girl who always put all her trust into you.

did it matter? no, not to you.

you told her that you only wanted her..

was that simply all a lie?

because all i see now is that you're with another girl.

did you ever care? yeah, well, prove it.

does it hurt you knowing it hurt her?

to the d!ckhead,
you hurt my friend and really, that's not acceptable in any way AT ALL.

you think that you can come and go as you like, don't you?

the truth is, you can't.

when you realise what you've let go of,

she won't doesn't want you back.

the door she once had open for you is now closed.

---
there's something for the good love but that's not enough
all he ever did was take it and never give back
go away love thief
don't you come back again
love thief go away
love thief so betrayed
love thief go away
it's a love crime

♥Little S

[yep. no motivation to write. none at all. oh gosh.. someone help me]

Because I hate goodbyes~

“It’s like, hey, I’m never going to see you again, goodbye. It doesn’t feel complete. But I think that’s what goodbyes are. They’re incomplete and you honestly don’t know how long the goodbye will last. It’s a part of life. A part of life I could do without.”


I wish it was different, but it's not. I suppose, this is inevitable. It's life.
We say hello, and we say goodbye as people walk in our lives, and people walk out.
Though the concept of saying goodbye is hard to approach. They are all different; some are for one day, some for weeks, and some are even forever. I'm thankful that ours isn't forever - forever would be so hard to accept.

If you are reading this, I want you to know that I still hope in a years time that we'll still be close friends, and that nothing has really changed. You ARE a great person, and I wish you all the best in everything you do. Thank you for the moments we've shared together - they've been much fun~
:) especially photoplus, pre-Valentine's Day and Tuesday. Hehe.

Even though it's hard to say and not the words you wish to hear; I'm sorry, but for now... goodbye my friend. (Until we see each other again)
I'll miss you! Don't forget me?

♥ Little J

Gone for good.

 all the memories we have are stained
i cant take this shit
how did i ever let it get this bad
messed up any chance we had

i'm so gone - rosette
---

Kept on running back.
It was like a never-ending story.
Except we knew how it was going to end.
In disaster.

"i really need to talk to you"
AGAIN??
We can talk here.
You could've just said it at that moment.
You know.. the moment you sent this to me?
So sick and tired of the made up shit.
If i let you talk to me..wouldn't it just end up just like last time?
Isn't it just another excuse to talk to me?
..or is it simple because you have no one left?

"please.. because i need you"
You say that. But do you really mean it?
Why are you coming back after everyone else stops talking to you?
Yes, i know what's going on. You messed up.
You told me that it felt like i only came back to you in times of need.
"Oh, right. Some of us sometimes feel, particularly me, that we're just second-hand friends."
Who's the hypocrite?
But really, you made it seemed as if i needed you in my life.
"and when they're just like 'okay don't wanna talk', you come back to me."
I don't. I don't if all you cause is trouble.

"do you really hate me that much now?"
I don't hate you.
I simply dislike you.
Quite a difference there.
Making us put up with all the shit you gave us.
Look at how many friendships you ruined now.
Yes, i know what you've done.
Look back at our history.

---

sorry hun.

no second chances anymore

im already out the door  

"So please stop hurting me, delete me forever and just, erase me from your life."
The very words you told me. Do that for me in return?

I don't want it anymore.

[call me a bitch or whatever. but i've had enough]

♥Little S

 ever had a friend just like this? massive sigh.

I found LOVE!

 
i found it -unknown

some say love is hard to find

but when i found you, i found it

when it comes to love, no you can't hide

cause it had me surrounded

two hearts as one, you and i

the best of friends and lovers

now i see the world through different eyes

cause you show me all, it's wonders.

love is great and love is blind

but love is here and love is mine..

----

i really did find it.. (:
how do i know?
cause you're with me.
i found you..

----

you always make me smile like an idiot
and make me laugh as if i'm retarded ~

[130210]
Now i know this day isn't valentines..
but that doesn't matter at all.
everyday spent with you is as special as it should be.

This is the date of yesterday.
This is the date we saw each other.
This is the date i wrote this.
But, this isn't the date i've posted it.
I just want to give you another valentines day present.
Something i can give to you on the exact day, even though i can't see you.

I'll never forget this day.
You make me feel so happy and loved.
I love the cookies you gave.. (omnomnomnom)
but i especially loved this:

 

and of course, the card :D

 You tortured me today! haha.

Oh damn, i'm too ticklish :P

I loved every moment spent with you..

I wish it could have lasted forever.

I love you so much. Don't ever forget.

I'll always be here for you.

I hope you loved my gift.

(ignore the fact that i was gonna post a pictureeee of it. lol)

I put a lot of love into it! (:

I just want to hug you and never let you go.

I just want to see you and never let you out of sight.
I just want to hear you and never stop listening.
I just want to..
I just want to love you..I DO :D

happy valentines day baby.

♥Little S

p.s i love you.

Love is in the air.

Almost that time of year again;
Sunday, 14th of February - It's Valentine's Day.
A love story, more or less.
How love just fills the air.

"Soft kiss and wine
What a pretty friend of mine
We're finally intertwined
Nervous and shy for the moment we will come alive
Tonight
Secret valentine"


Love comes in different ways~
Family-love. Friendship-love. Partner-love.
Either way, it's love.

On this very day, we do not have to limit our love to just the traditional 'if I have a boyfriend/girlfriend, I will celebrate'. We can share our love on this day with our beloved family and/or friends.
Chocolates, roses and the question "Will you be my Valentine?"


So if you are like me, single but still happy, let's spend Valentine's Day with someone we love and care about, whether that is a family member or a friend.
OR, actually, spend it receiving money if you celebrate Chinese New Year :) hehe, wooo!

♥ Little J

you colour my world..

RAINBOW!

red represents love

orange represents enthusiasm

yellow represents happiness

green represents life

blue represents tranquility

indigo represents wisdom

violet represents harmony

 

True colours..
To reveal your true intentions, personality, or behaviours.
----

I always thought i knew the person you were.

Kind, caring.. lol.. the funny thing is that i hardly remember that person enough to say all the nice stuff.

That person who was my best friend. The one who i could always count on..

But that's all gone now...

All i see now is you being selfish, possessive, mean.. a jerk..

So which one were you really? Did you really try that hard to please everyone?

I've given up after so many chances given to you to prove that you weren't the person i now know.

----
Sometimes people pretend to be somebody they're not.
This may be to please others or to try fit in. (etc etc etc)

What's the point if they don't like you for who you really are?
You want to be liked for who you really are, right?
And if people don't like you for who you are, then maybe they're not worth it.
If you're not yourself around others, then maybe you're not worth it.

I don't know.. i just think that you're wasting your time if you do..
But you know what? Eventually the true colours are shown.

♥Little S
----------
but I see your true colours
shining through
I see your true colours
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colours
true colours are beautiful
like a rainbow

request; for you!

poem by a friend of mine
enjoy

Never have I found such a lovely girl

Who’s eyes shine as bright as a sparkling pearl

The girl who dreams to soar the skies

But in her bed she stays and lies

Dreaming about the day she flies

Don’t break dreams and make her cry

As she’s watching each and every day go by

Until the moonlight comes by her bedside

And let her tears be out of sight

Slowly she drifts, into her slumber

Fearless of what’s going on around her

As I stay there and watch over

She walks into heavens light

 The clouds of love shine so bright

 As the light shines above

 I see her happiness, a thing called love

-jBh

"it's from the heart"

aww.. 

♥Little S 

p.s feedback anyone?

Lost it all..

 Today was a sad sad day!

The day my phone died -cry-

 doesn't look that bad eh? but i lost the battery and uh... the screen is screwed D:

let's have a minute silence to remember this phone :P

How did it happen?

Well, i went on that ride 'hangover' D: !

BAD CHOICE!

My phone fell out of my pocket when we were up in the air.

Oh my god.. and i even screamed out "my phonneeeeeeee!" (LOLLOL. -holds onto shoe-)

massive sadface times ten billion.

A phone falling from the sky does not survive!

Okay.. I was screaming cause my phone fell out. But also cause i was so scared T-T

I'm never ever going on that ride again. Should've seen me after it..

i felt so sick and was even shaking from fear. haha ><

I have the pieces of the phone except for my battery, which they couldn't find..

BUT ON THE BRIGHTER SIDE!! I have my sim card and memory card! :D

 hmm.. i remember.. it has a picture of you on it.

i think that's on the memory card :D

haha, i'm such a pedo eh?

-----

"did it have anything important on it?" my heart stopped.

the tears started and it wasn't something i could stop..

It had all those texts from you that made me smile

and it was something i wanted to show and remind you of in the future..

but, that was all gone know wasn't it?

Sigh..but i tried to look on the brighter side.

All those memories, i wont ever forget.

i know those texts were saved on my phone as a reminder,

but how could i ever forget the things you said..?

"so smile baby cause we're in love!"

"i love you and i don't take that lightly"

"seeing you is just a bonus. as long as i know you love me, it's okay"

"i love you so much. more than life"

"i can't imagine life without you"

"i love you the mostestestestestestestest"

"you make me so happy"

"you're perfect to me"

"you won't lose me baby"

"i must have promised it to myself. well, i promise that i'll never break your heart or break up with you"

the list goes on..

Well, while these may not have been exactly what you said,

i'll still remember the way it made me feel.

happy. the way a happymeal makes me feel :P

pinkfluffybunnyrabbit<3

♥Little S

It feels like only forever.

Today you turn 17! Happy birthday B! ♥

"Where have you been my whole life?"
As corny as it may sound, I'm grateful that you ARE here now and a part of my life.
You are a friend whom I trust like a sister. A friend that never judges and listens to what I have to say. A friend that understands and stands by me through it all.

Can you believe it has only been a few months since we first knew each other? We met through our lovely close friend S on the topic of friendships/relationships I endured.
Rather funny actually because if that never happened, we probably wouldn't have met!
Throughout the months, you've become one of my closest friends fairly quickly. I hope I'm one of yours too.

I re-read that email you sent me for New Years. How my face light up reading each word.
You make me laugh, you make me smile and you make me feel like I can do anything I set my mind to.
Thank you for EVERYTHING you've ever done for me! Hope you enjoy your birthday day with me :)


Little J ♥ B & S
Our everlasting friendship!
You are both kind-hearted, inspirational, honest, likable and two of the people I trust most in my life. I love everything about our friendship; the good, the bad and the craziness of it all. Here's to many more years of friendship.

[Poem I made up]
Our friendship is pure,
and oh so true.
You make me smile,
you really do.

We go through highs,
and go through lows.
I tell you secrets
that no-one knows.

You are so cool,
and never judge.
I think you also
won't hold a grudge.

You make me happy
brightening each day.
You are my friend,
lovely in every way.

I love you B~

♥ Little J

Treasure every moment

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way,
something to be gotten through first,
some unfinished business,
time still to be served,
a debt to be paid. 
Then life would begin. 
At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

Happiness is the way.
So, treasure every moment that you have. 
And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special,
special enough to spend your time
and remember that time waits for no one
So stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school,
until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds,
until you start work, until you retire, 
until Friday night, until Sunday morning,
until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, 
until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter,
until the first or fifteenth,
until your song comes on,
until you die. 

Decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

Therefore: 

Work like you don't need money,

Love like you've never been hurt,

And dance like no one's watching.

- Alfred D. Souza.

Time goes by so fast whenever you're with me..
Sometimes i wish that time would just stop.
So that i could be with you, longer.

And you know what the funny thing is?
That when i'm not with you..
time goes by so slow..
seconds like minutes. minutes like hours. hours like days. days like weeks. weeks like months. months like years.

You know what i want most?
To be with you..
but it's okay! I'll just treasure every moment spent with you.
Appreciate being with you. Loving you!

[[ Do you remember, the day we met? I know you do :P
Haha. It makes me laugh thinking about the day when we were in the city and i asked you if you remembered. You pointed at that very spot we met. We walked towards it and stood there for a minute or two. It really did take me back to that day..
IT WAS SOOO HOT! I remember my friend yelling out your name so loudly cause i was too shy too. >< AND YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF ME WAS PROBABLY ME BEING A RETARD! I couldn't stop laughing that day. Haha. But i was really glad that i had the chance to meet you.
And then i asked you if you remember whether you remember the place we had our first kiss. You took my hand and said "no", starting to walk. You walked to the very spot and gave me a kiss. It was like it was happening all over again. It made me smile and really happyFACE. :P

I'll never forget these special moments. ]]

You make me smile, you make me laugh.
Whenever i'm down, you wipe away my tears.
I know i can always count on you to be there.
I'll be there for you too.
We made each other promises,
which i know we won't ever break.
I think about the days we spent together,
It makes me so happy to know they were with you.
And you know what baby?
You are my everything. My one and only.
My stalker, pedo, silly king.

I love you!

happy 14 months, baby.
sending muchly love to you!
HAPPYMEAL <3

♥Little S

Press replay!

Do you ever feel like you repeat the same things over and over again?
Maybe it's listening to a song, or simply the daily routine of getting up for school.
Re-reading those conversations you had with someone that make you smile. Perhaps even reading the previous blog posts and seeing the countless mistakes made.
We're going around in circles. Again, and again.
Deja Vu.

I hatestrongly dislike you, and everything we've been through - especially the fights. Maybe I'm not thinking rationally; is my bitterness towards you real?

You used to be one of my closest friends, but now we have been driven further apart.
When I was happy, you assumed I was not. Why couldn't you just accept it? Be happy instead of bringing me down.
When I tried to help you out, you disregard my words and somehow, it was blamed on me.


"I don't know why she's mad at me..."
As if you don't know! Are you oblivious to such things? Or living in a delusional world?
"I'm sorry, I'll change."
Another lie? Did you even really try?
"I didn't mean those things I said about you."
Haha, are you sure about that?
"Let's never fight again."
Yes, really, let's never.

However to my dismay, you still try to contact me, even though seriously, you should know that I do NOT want to talk to you. If I did, I would have replied to you by now. Perhaps even unblocked you.
Your attempts to try and amend our friendship are a lost cause. Sorry, but honestly, your bitching ways is not the way to win my friendship back.
Saying you don't care when you really do is pathetic.
(Haha, I'm such a bitch)

I ask myself "Why am I still not talking to him?" when really I know why.
Maybe one day our friendship will revive again. Maybe we will be able to spend happy days together instead of none at all. Maybe, just maybe, history will not repeat itself.

♥ Little J